7 Years, A Poem by Megan Kangas

It’s been 7 years.
When I heard the news, I cried in my room for hours, letting no one in.
 My sister stone faced and lacking emotion for all these years.
I was, am, depressed and I want to blame you both.
But I can’t, you did what you did to try to save our family.
Why do I still feel so left out in the cold after 7 years.
When we are all together I feel awkward, I feel mad, but I get it.
 You did it because the love burned out, the fighting wouldn’t stop, and me I was left to cry in my room.
7 years in this darkness with no one to help but myself.
This family still talks, but my relationship with my mother has never been the same and my father was never around.
He tried his best to be there.
Yet, I still felt that hole left in my heart when I looked into the audience at my dance competition and you were not there.
Will we ever be the same after this messy dissolution, not yet.
But I am getting there, after 7 years.